Hi i'm YouTube Girl
I'm just a girl who lives in the world of youtube
Wednesday 24 October 2018
Hello Once Again...
So I really am doing these yearly, aren't I?
From what you last heard from me, I had just been messed about in a relationship buy someone that I really cared about
Well that continued
I was actually foolish enough to think, that they would care about me
But they didn't
So the last time, we was together was February 2018
I think, don't hold me to it!
But this time, I said I no longer wanted to be messed about and I expressed my feelings about how annoyed I was
And they got on the defensive, so I gave up with it!
But currently my ex has got with my best friends ex...
Yes I know what you are thinking
It is a bit insane
But they was both crappy in the relationships with me and my best friend
So they will get what is coming to them, as they are perfect for one another!
I have tried to get with other people, but I currently feel like I am the problem
Like there is something wrong with
Just teenage problems really!
The last you heard about my college course, I was really enjoying it because I had made new friends and that I was really enjoying my lecturers
Well me and my friends have been on and off at the minute and I personally think that is just me over reacting but the way they speak to me sometimes hurts
And the lecturers?
Well as I went onto the second year of my college course, they got switched around
So the lecturer, that is amazing, I hardly see because she didn't take our practical group
But she took everyone else's
So we get the new practical lesson lecturer and she isn't as funny or understanding
Especially with my phobia of the unpradicableness of snakes
But that story is for another time
Until the next post
YouTube Girl x
Thursday 16 November 2017
A Life Update
Hi Guys!
So it's been a while hasn't it?
Since the last time I spoke to you, things have definatly changed!
Me and the person that I was in a relationship ship with broke up in Summer 2016, which was very sad on both parts but mutual
We just wasn't right for each other anymore
But we are still friends :)
After that, I got in a new relationship and I was very happy with the person who I was with
Was being the underlying word...
The person I started going out with was a very close friend of mine and I really did love them but they broke up with me numerous times and broke my heart over and over again
So as of February 2017 I have been single
But I started a new college course at a university and I had to make all new friends to find someone else that I now like but I can't tell them because they are having problems of their own and I don't want to pile it on them
So here I am again, sat in the friendzone
But my life has changed a lot since I started at my new college because I have a set of all new friends instead of the ones that where dragging me back from my other college
I love my lecturers and I actually feel like I am going to do well in my course
And that is it for now
Until the next post
YouTube Girl x
Tuesday 26 January 2016
My Relationship Status
It has been so long since I posted
Anyway as you know me and my past relationship broke up in July of 2015
But now......
I am in a new relationship
It is practically perfect, we like the same things and we are practically the same person
I can really see a future between us
We are spending my birthday together with my friend (hope they don't ruin the moment) and then we are going on a date the next to Pizza express
I haven't had pizza in ages
Because i'm on a diet, I want to get a nice dress for prom and the only way to do that is lose weight
So that's what i'm doing and so far I have lost 20.5 pounds in weight nearly a stone and a half
I brought Girl Online On Tour but I haven't read much of it yet and I think I should to be honest and I finished FanGirl
It was soooooo good I advise you read it if your a fangirl like me who likes writing fanfiction
So anyways....
Until my next post
YouTube Girl x
Thursday 30 July 2015
We Broke Up.....
So I went on the date and since I last updated you, I went on two other dates after that and today I decided to call it all off
I wasn't happy with the relationship
I wasn't happy on how I was treated
I just wasn't happy
And I am scared people are going to hate me because of it
But now I have ended it, I feel free
That sounds really creepy
Anyway
I know breakups are hard
But I don't really know how to feel if I am truly honest
My friends support me and my best friend understands why we broke up
But I feel happy now
In good news I finally finished Girl Online and I can't wait for the next one
But I have started reading a new book called "FanGirl" and I am sure when I go to university that the girl in the book will be me
Anyway it was my birthday on the 28th and I went bowling with my friends and I have a brilliant time, although I was sick in the morning
Anyway
Thanks
YouTube Girl x
Friday 15 May 2015
The Date
So this is going so awkward for me to tell you
but
i have my first date tomorrow and let me tell you, i am so scared
I have never been on a date, even thought i was in a relationship for about 3 months but it was long distance but we never saw each other, not once
But the person i am going on a date with hasn't properly asked me out yet
To ask me on a date they gave me a little sheet of paper and it said "We have been together for quite some time so i thought it was time i shout ask you out for our first date on Saturday" or something like that and this was on Wednesday
I am really nervous because tomorrow i also have to go to the optitions and i know most people go to the optitions when they are like a baby and go like once a year but i have never been and i am freaking out and then i am going on my date at 12 or 12:30pm as we are not sure what time my optitions appointment is then i am going to sleep at my friends tomorrow night
I have a very busy day tomorrow
All my friends know about my date and they fully support me
Sorry i know this is boring talking about my life like this, i just find this blog a way to release stress and my feelings
Non of my friends know about this blog or my twitter
Wish me luck for my date tomorrow
Thanks
YouTube Girl x
Monday 16 March 2015
Fears
Hey guys
So I have been reading Girl Online (Zoella's book) and I am up to page 113
And it has really inspired me to share my fears
So today in school I was told in my English class that in the building where we have science that there was problem with the fire alarm and this panicked me
I have a fear of Fire Alarms
I have looked it up and no one has a certain name for my phobia
This is what I have learned from looking it up
All kids have a fear of loud noises when they are younger but the fear goes away the older we get, the is only a very small amount of kids who don't grow out of it and have a fear of loud noises
That just happens to be me
I have a fear of fire because something set fire in !my house and I think I blamed myself I went to a councilor and everything
I just can't get over this fear and some people call me childish but they don't understand it because they don't have that problem
If a loud noise goes off like a fire alarm I have like a panic attack, I can't breath and I have to hold onto someone because they can get me out of there.
I learnt in pyscology that a phobia is a mental illness
I have many other fears as well but this is my worst and I don't know how to get over it
In my science lesson today I wouldn't sit down because I was scared it was going to go off but it didn't, so I got told off by the teacher when they finally showed up.
Please share your fears with me it might help me feel better about mine, it really scares me
Co!sent your fear and how you plan to get over it ( if you can) and I mighty be able to help you
Thanks
YouTube Girl x
Thursday 12 February 2015
YouTubers And Friends
Hey guys
Have you heard Joe Sugg is bringing a book out?
Alfie Deyes is bringing his second book out
I am still reading Zoella's Girl Online and I am still no further
I brought Tanya Burr's book
Shane Dawson (American YouTuber, if you don't know who he is you need to go and watch his videos) has brought out a book
I love books and I love Youtubers but I don't have time to read there books I really wish I did
But I don't
OK this blog is like going no where
On Saturday it is valentine's day and my friend said "I can't wait to see all the depressing Snapchats that you put on, on Saturday"
I got really annoyed at that because yes I am single and I probably will but I don't really care
Today in one of my classes she wrote my name and "loves .........." And of someone sees it I am dead, it will ruin my hole life
I told her if she didn't scribble it out I would kill her
She is a pain in the backside some times
But that's what friends are
Sorry this has been really boring
See you soon
YouTube Girl x